Alzheimer’s?….for World Alzheimer’s Day

Alzheimer’s?

When I look into the mirror, I do not know who I see
For a very confused person just stares right back at me
I sometimes think I know her but I really can’t recall
Did I meet her on the stairway, did I pass her in the hall?

Does she look upon me kindly, does she think I ever knew?
The pleasures, the enjoyment past memories bring to you
I am scared and I am frightened, but don’t know the reason why
My head just starts a whirling, and I just start to cry

I know she cannot help me, although she may want to
My safety and existence must now depend on you
Rising  from my bed, I don’t know if it’s day or night
Before I was so placid, tho’ now I tend to fight

I don’t know who is winning for I can’t count the score
It isn’t of my choosing, I did not want this war
The conflict here within me is raging all the while
I’m angry and I’m frightened, forgotten how to smile

I may have a brief time when I sometimes get a glimpse
I saw my child a while ago, but I haven’t seen her since
I am living with a stranger, although she takes my hand
She says she is my daughter, I just don’t understand

I am weary of this raging, if I could I’d vote for peace
If this is to be my future, please pray for my release.

Glenys Halliday